no one ever see it coming,
but while you turn,
i sense
and always feel the pain.

for the first time out of all 8 seasons, i followed american idol.
perhaps the time allowance is the key this time round, when you practically have nothing to worry about.
go mr gokey.

i applied for sats out of boredom,
and after doing the diagnostic test,
i really require intensive practice on mathematics, which i had totally forgotten about.
is maths something you really forget without practice?

haha, oh well.

looking forward to the next phase of life.
l needs more excitment.

the family is flying off this wed to china [without me].
i am looking forward, to the ownership of the family car and the house for a week.
yea, the mom and bro needs some break in their life.
allow me to take care of the remains here.

i have become super unorganized in writing.
shit,
i need more practice.

My students are two days aways from their exam.
Being my first batch, i am inadvertently inclined to the worried side.
But, my confidence is sky high.

the arrival of their exams also signals the end of my “tuiton career” this year.
finally, a good long break is here to stay.
it seems as though, i myself studied the subject all over again.
its really brain draining, especially at this point of time, where my work does not
require the 100% use of my brain.

thank you, america, for choosing mr obama.
an unorthodox yet wise choice.
i guess i am biased.
the republican’s policy just does not put through with me.

met an old friend the other day,
time really flies.
pouring out sorrows over a piece of cheesecake.
it made me realise how the aims in my life has altered.

now, i wonder if there is a need for me,
to change the choice of my university,
to change the course that i want to do.

the traits of a gemini, i guess.
dualistic,
fickle
inconsistent

you name it, i exhibit it.

BUT,

i stood up despite fallen over and over again.

why not once more?

=)

Could the soul of this man, play his right kind of blues.

*Before i go on, jothi rai wants me to tell all of you that i think she is awesome

Whats done is done,
and what will not happen will not.

Then the question of “If”s all start floating in my mind,
How would my life be now, IF i had did this?
How happy i would be now, IF i had not made that move?

He,
does not know how to express his thoughts,
does not know what is wrong with him,
knows who,
but does not know why.

He,
realize that he misses that someone,
only after months of feigning ignorance,

He,
realize that he likes that someone,
only after months of no contact,

He,
fears contacting,
fears expressing,
fears messing up.

He,
misses that someone’s voice,
misses that special term,
only he understands

And now.

He,
longed for that one moment,
to have the bravery ,
to have the courage,
to take the right step.

I have this sudden urge to write a great post to make up for the laziness through the past few months.

But i guessed its not this post as well.

I will make sure, one good post in on its way next week when i return from field camp.
Watch out for the grandslam, as i have all the time in the world over the next few days, be it in the midst of the Lim Chu Kang field, or the sunny beaches of Tuas.

Till then,

Goodbye.

Take care,
and Hello to all.

catch me at starbucks with a cup of coffee, a slice of cheesecake and the latest time issue tomorrow.

on another note,
ive picked smu over nus.
keeping my future in mind,
i went with the marketable choice.
i thought a lot about the pros and cons,
and yes, many might not agree with the way i went about this
but hey its my choice,
just that smu doesnt seem to be a very popular choice among my peers,
i have tonnes of them going nus fass!
there goes the potentially brilliant campus life
and all the familiar faces that will await me 2 years later.
see thats a big sacrifice for me! one who thrives on friendship and relationships.
speaking of uni,
many i know are going overseas!
oh welll, this parting process is darn difficult,
and its so filled with emotions ,
i just had one great friend leaving and 2 more to come within this 2 weeks,
boo.

anyway. i spent my 19th birthday amidst great company
thanks girls for the huge giant banana and the nicely done card . wait i shall post a pic of it.

and the great company

and just not long ago, we celebrated all of their birthdays.
quite a pity sochenda couldnt come.
she was like err. ill. no details needed.
glad they loved it. some effort by the chief architect and designer, soh.
of course i helped with the stars and the card.
but all effort goes to soh, applause please. ms creative.
in fact, that meeting was probably one of the last we gonna be able to in a while.
okay some pictures again,

being in the army
can be quite a good thing too,
for me, in particular,
it allowed me to think about my future,
what i want to achieve in every way possible,
career, family , love, friendship.

i heed the need for success
not to be rich but to be happy.
now i spend time alone. andi am happy.
living in a enclosed world and i feel relieved
residing in my own pace, and i feel fortunate.

but of course, there are always certain elements that have not been fulfilled.
i want to go for it,
but i dont dare to.
being scarred too long
the emotional barrier,
a major deterrence.
though i realized the burden of it
cannot be shouldered alone.
the comfort i get is assuring
but the direction i move is confusing.
some guidance please.

people come people go.
im perturbed by the fact i was not there
yet im glad that you left in perhaps the best possible way
though tears have shed
hearts broken
know that you will always live in our hearts.
rest in peace.

Met up with partner and pak. relatively well spent 2 hours as we updated one another on the on-goings of life.
short but sweet.
anddd now theres a new mall in downtown singapore. haha.

really really nothing much to talk about. 3 more weeks to my official graduation as a saf medic.
come to think of it, a really honorable vocation ah. save lives.
and at one of those random corridoor at our company line.
there’s 3 words that read. “Medic- Bloody Proud”
you bet i sure am bloody proud.

wong. lets go do some good in this evil world.

Where do i proceed on next?
NUS or SMU.
first thing first,
im really lucky to be accepted by both unis along with the course that i wanted.

But now, im really at a loss as to where to go.
both unis has their pros and cons ,
i really want to make a decision early, probably by next week.

on the other hand,
i met a few of my classmates that day , and its really heartwarming
as we just sat back and chatted over the days in jc and caught up with
one another about the present and also, about the future.

have you ever wondered that some stranger next to you on the train or the bus
might be connected to you via some weird connections?
it occured me that way.
we all know one another.
and everyone knows everybody.
small world.
no more secrets shared.